I have test results, I don't really know how much to say about them here. I've not been able to do a single race that I recently blogged about due to the health issues and subsequently my mental state not being where it needs to be to tackle races. I was so excited. Now I just feel let down and frankly embarrassed.
Soon I'll figure out how to say everything that needs to be said. In the meantime I'm resting as much as I can, working and taking new meds. And thinking. A lot of thinking about what kind of life changes I need to make for a healthier, happier Shae. And then, I need to get to doing. Thinking is fine, but the doing, that is what makes the difference.
I recently put some colorful post it notes on my huge bathroom mirror with inspiring and supportive quotes as well as on my vision board hanging in my bedroom in an effort to surround myself with positive things first thing in the morning. And also, because I need support and it's not something I feel like I'm getting anywhere else. So my thinking is, well, you do it for yourself then.
I told someone recently I felt like there must be a breakthrough for me on the horizon because it's been months and months of turmoil and struggle, which means I'm growing. And soon, I hope very soon, there will be some relief and actual forward progress.
So as not to be a completely depressing I will leave you with a super cute photo of 2 little terrors, Dexter and Teddy, I took care of this weekend. I say terrors because they pissed on everything in my house multiple times each day. Nevertheless they were super cuddly and sweet.
